2 "E" To Entrust That...

Sunday nights are killing me.

Pretty sure I'm my own worst enemy in this area because I have this crazy idea that if I get everything done then I can have time to play for the rest of time.

Yeah, that's the problem right there. By me sitting here write typing this I am making more laundry. By me sitting here right now time is passing and that means in another week more will have to be done...more grading, more planning, more grocery shopping, more everything.

So what's the answer and why do I get to this point of the weekend and am always disappointed? I want to grow in this. I want to stop in the middle of this and choose differently. Not because everything is done for the week (which amazingly is actually almost true)...but because my heart is different and the steps that I took to get stuff done are different.

Which is why I am sitting here right now typing this. Because this is the first step to entrust.

To entrust that...

Aidan's birthday is going to work out just great even though the plan isn't in place yet.
To entrust that...

I still will get a run in tonight and the kids will get put to bed and their lunches will be made and I will make sure they feel loved in the "doing" of  life. 

To entrust that...

Aidan's school for next year and the next and the next...is all in God's hands. He knows. He has taken him this far and wants even better for him than I do. 

And for my Micah too. He knows. He knows that he doesn't spell great and hates to read but that he has a heart of gold and that is going to give him more success than any chapter book will.

To entrust that...

I will have a kick butt vacation this summer no matter where we go and how much we go. (I really don't entrust that yet but I will and typing it is the first step...)

To entrust that...

 When Crick, Mindy, Faith, and Asher move in it is going to be good. And that is all that matters. Not rooms complete or rules for leftovers...just good because we are together. 

To entrust that...

 God knows our desire for community and will meet that.

To entrust that...
  
I will get more epi pens for Micah even though paying for them year after year isn't fair. It is a reminder of God's provision and protection in his life.

To entrust that...

These aren't just words I type or entrust to some random chance but are entrusted...put in the care of someone. Entrust means that you transfer trust . Trust transferred from me, trust transferred from my circumstances to the care and protection of God. That kind of trust. The kind you do on purpose.

#1 "E" Entrust

19 days. It's already January 19th and I don't have any amazing thoughts. Instead just like every year it is a process. Day by day...bit by bit.

And this year I already have learned that through the simple story of offering my Starbucks gift cards for the New Year's Eve party and winning them back in Uno.

Yep. That simple, but yet that important.

Let the journey begin.