The last time I blogged was the first day of summer. I just came back from Thanksgiving break. That's a lot of life that I've lived in the last 13 weeks. I've written a lot...I pretty much crank out a 5-6 page paper every weekend or every few weekends. School is a lot. Figuring out how to get the boys to practice and home is a lot. Planning and grading and giving quizzes and responding to emails is a lot. Doing laundry is a lot. Hosting small group is a lot. Getting up at 5:15 to run and swim is a lot. Life is really just filled with a lot right now...and honestly I can't decide to just cut back and make it easier.
But I can decide to enjoy the ride.
I can decide to not live in bitterness or resentment.
I can stop complaining that my school start time is later.
I can find joy.
And so on this Friday night I could choose a lot right now. I could choose to do laundry, I could choose to do homework, I could choose to grade my unit tests.
But sometimes the best way to refuel is stop and look back. To remember that this is just a season and it too will pass.
Life is always going to be a lot. So I better not kid myself. I can't change that...but I can choose how I handle the 'lot' that has been entrusted to me.
So with that I will find joy. I will choose to live with perspective...both in looking back and looking forward. I will live with less fear and more hope.
Joy.
Pretty sure I know what my 2019 word is going to be...
