I wrote this ealier this year and I think its time to go there again...
Holy Smokes.
Lots of trusting is happening around here.
I thought when I journaled back on January 24th I had some growing to do. Today I have more trusting to do than I did before. But I think that's what this life is. MORE. Depth. Growing. Process. All in. That's what we all want right? Just not the pain to get there. That's what Donald Miller says so eloquently in Million Miles in A Thousand Years. I'm just in the straight up application of it right now.
So here we go. Again. With depth.
To entrust that..
This whole basketball club team will work out for Aidan. And it will be good. And we can still go to Disney and Fort and travel.
To entrust that..
To entrust that..
Summer. That in itself is my greatest fear and struggle right now.
To entrust that..
My job. Hot diggie dog. That's all I can say. This is a biggie. This is a "God what are you seriously up to?!"
To entrust that..
Someday we can sell the house and travel and have a sailboat and live simply.
To entrust that..
To entrust that..
We are molding and shaping our boys into Godly men and that sacrifice is what it is all about right now. And that joy is what is all about.
To entrust that..
God has it. Whatever my it is...my need for new vibrams, desire to run, wanting to live less selfishly but then struggling when that becomes a reality...
To entrust all of it. Not just my todays and yesterdays but my tomorrows. Yikes.But one thing I know for sure you can't entrust your life to somebody you don't know. So God help me know you in all this. Relationship and entrust go hand and hand.
Depth. More.
That was January...So on this November day what do I have to entrust? Probably more than I know...
Here it goes...
To entrust that...
Time for what matters will always be there. Time to play. Time to rest. Time to get it done.
Time for what matters will always be there. Time to play. Time to rest. Time to get it done.
To entrust that...
Jeremy and I will sail the ocean sooner than later.
Jeremy and I will sail the ocean sooner than later.
To entrust that...
Micah will grow and grow and soar in school. Not because we care for the sake of numbers or grades or test scores...but because I want to prepare him for every opportunity that comes his way.
Micah will grow and grow and soar in school. Not because we care for the sake of numbers or grades or test scores...but because I want to prepare him for every opportunity that comes his way.
To entrust that...
All of this crap will get prepped, graded, and posted. It always does.
To entrust that...
My shoulder will heal completely and I will swim Alcatraz.
To entrust that...
My birthday celebrations will be just that...celebrations.
To entrust that...
It will always all get done. The laundry, the grocery shopping, the cleaning. And then I will have to do it again. Because that is life and that is awesome that it is never done because those piles are the reminders that we are living the length and depth of life. We are going to the gym, we are wearing out our shoes, we are eating the food, and we are living a full and blessed life. Every day the piles at the end of the day indicate that. See it as a gift.
