Thursday, April 10, 2025

VMAC thoughts

 Swim lessons from swimming in a meet 


Things I forgot how they feel 

  • Wondering when to warm up and how much to 
  • What to eat and how much 
  • How to respond to your results after your race 
  • How to encourage and what to say to others 
  • The amount of social battery it takes to be on a team and talking to people at a meet 
  • The post swim crash after not swimming for a few hours and how you have to hype yourself up multiple times 


Things that I never felt before 

  • The angst of putting on tech suit and how and when to pee (and what do girls do when they have their period?) 
  • Figuring out my identity and what I swim and what I should or shouldn’t expect from myself 


Day 2 

  • How to shake off a bad nights sleep and know that won’t determine the outcome, how I handle it will 
  • Why when you ask people how their race was the first thing they say is what went wrong? (Myself included!)
  • The 50 free and how it’s all the things. Easy because it’s short. Hard because it’s so precise. 
  • Attitudes are contiguous on the team, feed off the team when you need it, build up when you have the energy. 
  • The end of day 2 is legit feeling of relief 


Feedback and post swim thoughts: 


  • My role as a teammate can be to see what you dos well 
  • I have some feedback when do you want it?  
  • Or…sandwich it: What do you think you did well?…Now what can you improve on…
  • Also, we are in a sport that thrives on improvement. We are going to gravitate towards that. How can we be both honest but efficient? 

Random 

  • How people greet you matters. How you greet others matters. This gives a sense of belonging. (There was nothing like walking in and being welcomed and people excited I was there. And people that give me credit for what I have helped them with.) 
  • Staying to eat together after competition matters 
  • Honoring people in award ceremonies matters
My hope from swimming this last weekend was to be a better coach when I remembered what it’s like to be the one in the pool. 

The pool that I wanted to swim in from the time I first saw it and Micah swam in it oh so many years ago. I cheered at that pool for many hours and I realized this weekend that where you swim doesn’t matter, who you are with and what it means to be a team…that’s the good stuff. Funny how we get so much more than we give when we are open. I just wanted to grow. And I knew I had to do something more than what I had. What I got in return was a whole lot more. 

What else do I need to do this in my life for? 

Thursday, April 3, 2025

A quiet mind

 Ish…

I still check my email too much. I still respond to text messages too instantly. I still pick up my phone and don’t know why. 

But. 

But it’s shifting. I can see the shift in my mind and it’s quieter. I listen more and I go deeper in what I’m reading or watching. Tonight I watched a movie on a Thursday night just because. 

And I found the song titled quiet mind and it’s become my mantra…

And so these words have helped me …ish. 

What I’m finding is we are all trying to be more present. Be more creative. Be more productive but yet do more yoga at the same time. Be more multitasking but then actually do one thing at a time. We are all chasing too much and live in fear of something getting forgotten or unfinished. But we live in a life where we can keep track of things more than  ever. Maybe our goals need to shift. Maybe we don’t need more of anything. Maybe we just need to just take the invitation that’s already there. A quiet mind…(ish) 


(Lyrics by Shadowlands) 


It’s an invitation tonight, give me a quiet mind
I′ve been slipping through the sands of time
Fear creeping up from behind
In all of the tragic in this static
Stillness is hard to find
I′ve been trying to catch my breath
I've been living myself to death
Chasing anything and everything
Until there′s nothing left
Arms around me through the night
Shield and shelter in the fight
You've been all around calling out right there
Giving me songs of consolation
Making this work in the hurt, so steady and strong
It′s an invitation tonight, give me a quiet mind
Tonight, give me a quiet mind, tonight