"3" T

Truth is.

God's goodness is there

When I have homework stressing me out.
When my dress has a 3 inch hole in it.
When the sun shines on me outside at lunch in my ripped up backyard.
When Aidan is crying in pain because of pushing it too hard at his games this weekend.
When Micah is grumpy.
When Jeremy and me are in a bad place.
When Jeremy and me are in a great place.
When I don't know what the best decision is for the future.
When I am sick of writing papers and doing discussions.
When I have no time.
When I have extra time.
When it takes me a week to watch a 45 minute episode of This is Us.
When Summer is only 6 weeks away.
When Summer is unknown and we haven't bought plane tickets YET with our vouchers.
When I make extra money tutoring.
When I'm exhausted from early morning Saturday practice.
When we sneak in a hike on a Sunday afternoon.
When the game goes to overtime.
When they lose in overtime.
When I have so many unknowns.
When I'm tired.
When I have laundry piling up.
When I'm writing papers at Modern Market on a Wednesday night.
When we wonder how the heck everyone else seems to have plenty of money for new cars, new bikes, and vacations.
When I feel that everyone around me isn't aware and taking care of me.

Truth is.

Life isn't about the moment I'm in. It isn't about circumstances. It isn't about the sun shining. It isn't about the games won or lost.

It is about all of it. It is about God's goodness through it all. 

All. Of. It. 

That is where I'm trying to be on a Thursday night in April.

"2" Truth Do this instead...

Truth is...I almost just went to Facebook instead of writing this.

But, I know I need a soul check and this is going to turn me a little more back in the direction of renewing than a social media check will. So here's what truth I have to share for today...

Truth is...laughing with Micah tonight over silly games and coming up with words for the alphabet was the types of memories I want to make. I laughed till I cried, I can't remember the last time I did that. So needed.

Truth is...I walked during my 'run' today and thought a lot about happy failures. Thought about if my goal was to run the whole time I would have failed. But if my goal was to get outside and be in the sun, and move my body, and be thankful...totally success.

Truth is...tutoring someone their math facts is a level of creative teaching that I haven't had to do in a long time, but it helps remind me that I always have more to learn. It helps remind me that learning is a process and watching someone learn is a gift that I have been entrusted with.

Truth is...I am stinking tired. I don't know how much longer I can keep up taking classes, teaching, tutoring, and figuring out my kid's schedules. But the more I allow myself to be still in the midst of all of this the more that gets done. That's a weird truth.

Truth is...being a parent is hard. Really hard, but man the rewards of the last two days were all the sweeter because of how hard Thursday night was. Watching 50 First Dates and eating granola bars...leaning in and enjoying the gift of time together. Like actual be together time.

Truth is...God is good. Even when we have to fix the Subaru, pay taxes, fix the deck, and say no to Hawaii.

Truth. So much better for my soul.