I am losing it. As in my water bottle, my headset, tests, sleep...and perspective.
And right now it's time to reflect on what I haven't lost and what I've gained recently.
New. New experiences.
I have swam hard again. I forgot what it was like to really push myself and in that I found it's not about comparing myself to others. And it's not even about comparing myself to myself. It's not a competition anymore. It's about investing in who I want to be and knowing that this is part of it.
I have gone to band night and back to school events at Powderhorn and known nobody because Micah is in a new school and we are starting from scratch. And knowing that if I am uncomfortable how much more is he. And he goes every day. And he tries. And he is more honest about his learning than ever before. And it's hard but the hard is what is making it the awesome. I don't think we can have one without the other.
I have 152 new students. Students to learn and grow and get to know me and me get to know them. New. New routines, new schedules, new parents, new names. And they have been entrusted to me...and so that means I need to care for them...just like new babies need care. They need me to care not be ticked today when they go to the wrong tables or don't listen.
New ways to share space and time together. New memories and experiences with Faith and Asher. And if I don't stop and invest I will miss it. I need to make time to invest.
