#3-"Unbecoming"

This is the post you don't want to write. This is the post that is the opposite of the FB showcase. This is the post that must be written for growth to happen.

So here it is.

I was talking to my cousin the other day about my word and we were joking around about if it is possible to unbecome something. Like what about the stuff in your life that you want to get rid of that is not who you want to become. And she said "unbecome is a word...like you look unbecoming in that dress...you know it doesn't look good". And we laughed some more about how that isn't really what I am shooting for to be ugly. And then I hung up the phone and didn't think more of it until today.

When I looked at how my selfish and uncontent attitude that has been creeping up lately is really unbecoming. And I know I need to fight it. I have been home for the last two weeks which means I have the oppourtunity be reminded more than usual that I don't have new blinds for the house. And I don't have the pictures I want on the walls. And I don't have coffee tables. And I haven't gone skiing or to Toyko or anywhere else that everyone (yes, everyone!) has gone over break. I only went to Texas. Poor me.

So I focused on it more and more. I looked online for new coffee tables. I looked at Ikea. I whined. And it became more and more unbecoming.

And so today after church I decided to "change my clothes". I walked out of church and said, "you guys ready to go sledding?" And so we came home...used what we had (I don't have NorthFace Ski pants...gasp! And Aidan's ski pants were too small so I gave him mine and wore my mom's pants from 1992...literally.) And guess what? It was much more of who I want to become. It was much more becoming to sled down the hill in my old pants laughing and having a grand time with my kids than sitting on Google trying to search for coffee tables that really don't exist anyway.

And we broke the sled. And laughed. And went to Starbucks with the giftcard that we had. And came home and shoveled the driveway together. And the picture we "painted" of today captured more of what I want to become. What I want my boys to become. What God wants us to become.

And I thought...this battle of unbecoming isn't as hard to fight as I thought. It just takes action. Fighting action that God has equipped us with all along.

The battle of contentment is worth fighting for. I will fight. Again and again. And. Again.