#3 "S" Take it From Here...

I don't want to be intentional and reflective right now. I don't want to recognize the awesome parallels and lessons I learned from being a parent this weekend and being a child of God. I don't want to prepare for my week of teaching. I don't want to make meals and do laundry.

I want to be selfish. I want to make a campfire and drink beer. I want to sleep in and ignore responsibilities. I want to have my kids realize how much we sacrifice for them and have them. I want to go on a vacation and just be.

I think I just want grace. And I think I need to have it so I can give it. I think that we all long for that place of just going "The Lord is my Shepherd I shall not want. He leads me beside quiet waters he restores my soul." We want the promises that only our God can deliver on.

That is the cry that we all get. It doesn't matter if we are 2 or 22 or 102. It doesn't matter if we are a mama or a teacher. It doesn't matter if it is February or July. It just matters that we have that place we can go to and say, "I'm wiped. Can you take it from here?"

And so that's my Selah right now. That's how I am going to move from a place of wanting to get credit for all my hard work and what I have coming to me and instead rest in the promise that He is the restorer, not me. He is the One that gives grace. He is the One who created me for this exact moment with these exact needs. This doesn't come as a surprise to Him. The surprise is why I think I can do it without Him.

I can, it just looks a lot uglier. I am a lot more impatient. I want it to be all about me when I do it on my own. Interruptions are so frustrating.When I'm in that place I am not who I want to become. As I learned last year those moments can turn into days and into months and years. I want those moments to turn into something beautiful, not the ugly that I do on my own.

I want to welcome others in. I want to have calm waters. And I truly just want to trust in that peace. Not because everything around me has settled down but because I am being led by the One that can take it from here.

Take it from here. What sweet words to rest in.