What about when you can't stop and pause and KNOW you NEED to? And yet life is just so much. Parent-teacher conferences. A new vehicle with a check engine light. Grandma dying. PARCC testing. Getting a message that your little boy cried during testing because it was too much for him. All in the last 3 hours I have been slammed with life.
I know I need to Selah. But life doesn't allow for it when I needed it.
It's now 3 hours later and I haven't handled all of that well. Anybody can handle life when it's EASY. Anybody can handle the classroom full of eager to learn kids. Anybody can jump in the hot tub.
What about the ocean waves? What about classes that have Sam McClurg (Name changed) in them? What about days when you have conferences that are just disheartening? What about days when a loved one dies?
What then? How do you pause even when you can't? Is it a state of being no matter what the situation? Is it a heart decision long before it is an in the moment decision?
I don't know. I just need to be honest and say I knew what I needed today I just didn't know how to get it when I needed it till it was too late.
My favorite quote of the day now that I am sitting and reflecting was when Marnie told me that she was glad when her daughter was little and had her "card flipped" for talking because it is ok not to be perfect. It is actually welcome. Love that. Love the grace that is overflowing from that.
Welcome the "flipped cards" of life. That is what I will title this post. Great reminder.
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