I feel like I'm cheating a little bit on this year's word. I looked back at my blog and realized how much I already write about and desire what a full life is.
I feel like I wanted a year that is about just enjoying all the gifts and awesomeness that life is.
I feel like I wanted to be ok with not being in go a million miles an hour and prove that I can do everything mode.
Because even if I can I have totally learned that I don't have to. And actually if I do life isn't full...it's stuffed. And I've done that life enough to know that doesn't prove anything except what a fool I am.
It's like the idiots that brag about not taking vacation and how many days and hours they work. Really? That's so not who I want to be in any way. I used to think I did. I used to think my FB posts were best if they were stuffed with status updates like this...
Workout check. Laundry check. Grocery shopping check. Made everything from scratch check. Did 30 million push ups check. Lost my mind check. Exhausted...check. And on and on...
And so today my day was full but not stuffed. I got up at 5:30 and swam but I didn't let that define me and have to prove how much more I can do because I did that. Instead I watched a movie with Aidan in his room with him. I sat and drank coffee and read a book. I went to breakfast with Jeremy even though I could have went home and made eggs at home because I am learning to just be sometimes. I took Micah to a friend's house so he could connect. I went to the library and wandered around. I stopped at my sister in law's house and worked on a photo book. I held Daniel. I took a nap. I took a hot shower again even though I showered this morning. And it was a day filled with good. So much good and so much more than making a giant project to do list and proving how much I could get done.
I proved so much more today. Maybe nobody else noticed it, but I did. God did. My family did. And that is what a life that is full is about.
All I can say is...this is gonna be good. Full and good.
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